uncertainty

i don't even freaking know what's going on in my life anymore. so much doubt. and questions.

i am lost.

anyway..... here is my summer in a nut shell.

wake up, work at my dads shop.

go home around 3 (depending on if i have enough work to stay that long)

shower, eat (sometimes)

go to days at 4. work till 8. go home. eat (sometimes)

see randi (sometimes)

sleep. (sometimes)

i have learned to hate the holidays in the summer. stupid tourists come into days and ask the most retarded questions.

i am weeding out the people i can't trust in my life.... because without trust, what else do you have? however, if you haven't seen or heard from me that does not mean that i dont trust you. i'm just busy.

i can't find money for school next year....and honestly my dads shop is going down hill fast.... so i could just be living in logan and working.

because of my very staggered eating schedule i have lost 20 pounds..... not sure if thats a good thing. but i guess i dont really have a choice. its gone.

i had many things and wants about my future planned out....this summer has turned them upside down. i dont know what i want anymore.

i'm sorry for the rambling, if you're confused by this point.....welcome to my life.

the end

i am me

it has been far too long my friends.

here's the low down on my life lately.

last week was spring break. that was amazing. tim and i volunteered for the utah conservation corps in Zion national park. it was so beautiful. and the weather was perfect. warm, not hot. but not cold at all. except nights and mornings, holy cow.

tim and i made some interesting friends on the trip and stood on the brim of some of the most breath taking views i've ever seen. (i'll add pictures when i get them developed)

i still work at lee's marketplace. the people there are really fun. maybe even better than the people at days! i work about 25 hours a week. and almost always close.

school is......school. i am yet again doubting what i want to do with my life. but i'm going to stick with ETE until i can figure it out.

i have fairly recently fell in love with a new comedian. maybe some of you have heard his stuff. very simple, but yet very very funny. his name is demitri martin. worth youtubing!

i should be done with school for the semester in the very beginning of may. i am excited/nervous for that day to come.

to those who are actually still reading this, i thank you. i have been rambling for who knows how long. and i'm still not going anywhere.

well....i think i'll end this blog.